When I first write blogs...

I don't think my first priority or purpose of writing blogs is to gain attention. NO! HECK NO! Neither will attention seeking be my second or third or whatever priorities. IT NEVER WILL BE! Some people thought that I am a devilish diva trying to gain attention by writing blogs! This is ridiculous. I never thought blogs are for gaining attention! They are meant for bloggers to channel their thoughts or feelings!

When I first write blogs, my intention is to pen down my thoughts and feelings and at the same time, disseminate knowledege far and wide. Of course, it comes with my support and some advice for the gay community or the PLU community. The thoughts that I write are either purely from my point of view, my imaginations or inspirations from other people. There are times when I write blogs when I feel frustrated or feeling depressed. Ages ago, I had started written a blog before because of the latter. But it got lost somewhere after I was too lazy updating it and later found out that it became a Spanish blog. I found it amazing that this afternoon, the blog name wasn't what I had named it previously. It was hacked!

Anyway, when I write my blogs, here are the rules I abide:
(a) There is no element of attention seeking. I don't need anyone's attention to write blogs. I can write blogs on my own!
(b) My writings are solely my responsibility; there may be controversial issues I want to discuss here.
(c) My opinions are solely mine, not others; nobody represents me writing this blog of mine.
(d) My imaginations of story writing is purely mine, unless I state that it is written based on a true story.
(e) My thoughts are my thoughts; these represent the contents of the author's thoughts.
(f) I have feelings, and when I wish to blog them down; this blog merely serves as a platform for the author to express his feelings, NOT a platform to gain sympathy or attention!

Those of you who think that I write for attention, think again. That is never my purpose or intention when I first write my blog. I will let you know now that my pure intention is to pen down my thoughts here. Nothing else. I follow by my own blogging rules.

You think I blog for attention? THINK AGAIN!

The Resurrected One,
Reszurrecdito M. d'Saintner

Coming out of the closet

Someone told me that closets are for clothes, not meant for humans to stay in. I thought, well, if that is what "a closet" literally means, then yes, that's right. A cabinet, indeed! But in the true sense of human ways of lives, a closet means an entirely different thing. It is an adjective, which means, in figurative term, a secret, a "place" for people to "hide" in. Referring this to people who are gay and usually stay secretive that way, this word has been in common usage exclusively for people like us (or PLU, a less derogatory term for gay) who wish to go low-profile.

For some of us, coming out of the closet isn't really as simple as "walking out of the closet" and announce "Hey World! I am GAY!". A few people can cope with it, But others can't. I have dealt with this before, and I can tell you dealing with it can be extremely painful, psychologically speaking. My parents found out I like guys when they caught me "doing something" while ogling at muscular top-nude guys on magazine covers and newspaper cuttings. The thing is, I did not come out voluntarily, rather I came out of the closet by freaky "sticky" situations like that.

Of course, they were unhappy with me at that time, but heck, that was years ago. My dad screamed at me, and I knew my mum was crying, in her heart. It broke their hearts to know that their son was somewhat abnormal in their eyes. "Abnormal" till today. Things like this I wish to forget, but what the heck, it stays on my mind like glue till today.

I didn't know what more to say after that, but I guessed it wasn't nice to come out that way. The fact is, dealing with it is really psychologically stressful. Before you decide to come out, please think twice. Don't regret after coming out. My two cents worth of advice. Good luck.

The Resurrected One,
Reszurrecdito M. d'Saintner